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Pale white and trembling all over, he was in this sad state when I saw him first. Empty eyes. We were on a long distance plane to Bangkok. He looked sick and worn. How old might he be - 74? Will he ever make it down to the baggage claim, I asked myself?

2

Pale white and trembling all over, empty eyes, so I saw him again: at the baggage claim. I was miserable enough after a lengthy night flight, but he looked really sick and even more worn. Will he ever make it into town? And what is he doing here? I was coming for cheap sex, but him? He looked more like 84 now. Will he ever make it up onto Nana's second floor?

3

Pale white and trembling all over - there he stood again! This time I met him at the reception of Nana Plaza's short time hotel. I was still trying to close my zipper, coming back from a short time with some Khun Noi or Lek or whatever. There he stood, with his usual empty, appalling eyes. Next to him: a too young ugly chinese workíng girl with heavily painted, but empty eyes. Pale white and trembling all over, she too. Did he force mimikry on her? They were waiting for a key, or condom, or wheel chair? Will he ever make it up into ---, I asked myself?

4

And then I asked myself: When I'm 84 - will I be like him? Carried upstairs by too young ugly empty-eyed trembling pale Chinese whores? When i'm 84 - who will need me, who will feed me? Khun Noi, Khun Lek? At that moment, walking out of the short time hotel into a steaming blaring Nana night, the cutie still holding my hand looked at me with shock: I was pale white and trembling all over.